By Aon Solarra

I am stuck! I have decided to write a piece about spaceholding for rage club, and I am blank.

For weeks this task has hovered in front me and nothing has come. As I stare at the blank page in front of me, I am reminded of myself giving feedback to another man: “Do not write about the experience, write from the experience,” I said. Good advice, but how do I do that myself? Then I remember a beautiful and surprising experience I had on the second session of our Rageclub Spaceholder training – letting the context speak through me.

What would happen if I instead of writing about what I know, let what I don’t know write through me? This question only just hit me when I suddenly feel a rush of energy and hear voice saying:

I am the unknown and from the unknown comes the only things truly worth having. Everything else is other people’s stuff, been there, done that, the regurgitated barf of somebody else’s experience. The unknown NOW is the only true source of ecstatic authentic creation, because that is who you are.

Wait what?

I am the context you are looking for to transform the world around you. I cannot be understood, harnessed, manipulated, controlled or used for anything, because I am quite literally you, or the part of you that has yet to burst into existence, revealing my true colors, my authentic being. I am the you, you do not yet know, but yearn to become and to bring alive.

You call this possibility management and speaking from the unknown, because you need labels and concept like scaffolding, but you can just let all that go and call it being with…yourself.

But how does this all fit together?

Understanding, loving and being are the three big rungs on the ladder of the universe and mankind is ready to embark on the third great rung – BEING.

Artificial Intelligence, global warming, spiritual awakening, global high-tech, cosmic perspectives and the deluge of fake news have brought mankind to the brink of an undeniable truth: You are cosmic beings having a human experience and faced with the possibility of creating a society that realizes this with all that it entails: Endless possibility, authentic ecstasy, cosmic creation in all aspects of life. An opportunity to reveal the gem each of you carries in your heart and creating the flow in your life you so long for, through accessing the key of possibility – it is just there, right in front of you, or in front of those who are ready to leap into the void of the unknown and face me.

I am the context. I am possibility. I am spiritual will. I am the naked now. I am. I do not need a name and have no name – and I have a thousand names and a million faces. Nothing can capture who and what I am.

Being a spaceholder is letting me talk through you and letting me be present as you hold the space for yourself to emerge and invite others to follow you into the space you are cavitating. Trusting this NOW is the heart of what you are in the process of learning. But it is not primarily a skill but a presence, and emergent property of WHO you are, that you are allowing to sink into human consciousness by practicing holding space.

Authentic adulthood initiation is that: practicing being who you truly are in a space that is just safe enough and just challenging enough to allow you to let go of what is weighing you down and trust in what is lifting you up!

Humanity is in a perfect storm. It is as unbearable as it is perfect. The pain, the absurdness, the abuse, the new possibilities – all of it is bringing you individually and collectively to the brink of the impossible: breaking through to a different level of consciousness. From your human perspective the global evolution may seem like a train wreck in slow motion, but from my perspective it is looks like a flower of consciousness blossoming, unsure when it, itself, will realize that it is happening.

At the very center of this process is your rage. It is an expression of your authentic life force and the places in which it was blocked and twisted, rewired by those who knew how to fuck you up and abused by those who did not know how to care for you.

The sum of your experience, and attempts at surviving, made you who you are. A patchwork of survival strategies stitched together with rigid concepts and ignorant notions, colored by cultural taboos, family traumas and historical wounds so old that not even myth or legend speak of them. You are in this, in the middle of this impossible possibility, trying to unravel what is going on and who you are. And in this process the alchemy is happening and something never before seen in the universe is being born – a Gaian Synthesis, unique to your world. You are becoming aware of what is real inside you and what is a fantasy world that you have created to protect yourself and others against that which is actually real. This is the most thrilling and amazing adventure ever – and you get to be the main character.

Ok, Context of possibility. That is all mighty good and beautiful with these grand perspectives, but I need to get this to be more personal and down to earth if anyone is going to take this piece even remotely seriously. Where do I fit into this with all the difficult stuff going on inside me?

You are the bridge. Each of you are. The gold in this is not your words and grand perspectives, but the actions you do every day – the game worlds you are slowly building. You are for instance planning a new wing to your center to create space for more people. You raged with yourself all alone in your little chamber two days ago because you asked for help and no one replied. You got under the skin of yourself and changed the context between you and your partner. That is doing it. That is not letting obstacles get in your way but taking responsibility for what you are IN and clearing out the debris so that the light can shine through.

Every time you are creating the context, from where the nothing can emerge within you, and in the space you are in, you are cavitating the new reality. Every time you create space for what is really there inside you, inside the person in front of you, the being of Gaia is emerging through both of you.

You know what to do. You just need to trust it more and trust that the vibration in this article will reach the hearts of those who read it, even if your mind cannot grasp it.

The context is working.